The One With the Big Toe.

My Lost Big Toe.

Like a Summer's perfection.

Each ray hitting my every pore.

Clothed in cotton white.

We used to walk, side by side.

Each whisper was a stimulus, waking up my senses.

Each breath I counted. Faultless.

Each touch was historic.

Can thoughts ever go away?

Will memories remain memories?

You're like my lost Big Toe.

I can still function normall,

but forever walking with a slight limp.

That was me. In my future.

Long gone. But will be back, soon.

Copyright 2009

By: Emery

July 11, 2009. 1.01 a.m

written out of confusion.

The One with all the Tennis Talks

I'm about to celebrate my anniversary as a tennis fan. lol. What better way to celebrate it than flood my blog with tennis pictures. lol. Just in my kindergarten stage, eh? I first saw tennis when Djokovic was playing at last year's Beijing Olympics. He won the Bronze medal but he was happier than Rafa who won Gold at that time. He was like a kid, grinning non-stop. I had to write his name on my wall so i won't forget it. lol.

So I'll just write down my favorite matches my almost 1-year old tennis eyes have seen so far.

Novak Djokovic - Bronze Medal, Summer Beijing Olympics.

Serena Williams and Jelena Jankovic - Women's Singles Finals - US Open 2008

- Fell in love with yet again another Serb. lol. Great match! It was JJ's first Grandslam championship.

d Laver Arena - Men's Singles - 4th Round
	Tomas Berdych CZE (20)				6		77		4		4		2
	Roger Federer SUI (2)				4		64		6		6		6

^^ Roger Federer vs. Tomas Berdych - 4th Round; Australian Open 2009

Fed was down 2 sets and only a true champ can still rise up and eventually conquer the whole game.

Rafael Nadal vs. Fernando Verdasco - SF Australian Open 2009

- the longest match in the history of Australian Open. 5 hours and 11 minutes If I'm not mistaken. it was so fun to watch the two Spaniards fought their way til the end. They still had enerygy after the 5th hour. Oh the murdered bananas. lol. and the hug at the end was so friggin cute!. and Nando's hair remained unmoved after the game. lol.

Novak Djokovic vs. David Ferrer - Dubai Open Finals.

- Nole won the tournament! thank God for internet streaming!

Madrid Open 2009: Roger Federer vs. Rafa Nadal

- every match of these two is always memorable.: Fed won!

and I just love this pic!

Roger Federer vs Rafael Nadal - Australian Open 2009

- two words. Fed's speech.

aaawwww

Soderling vs. Federer

French Open 2009 Finals.

- it was quite a boring match but the fact that Fed put his name in history that night made it spectacular.

and again, the SPEECH!

he gives the best speeches

Elena Dementieva vs. Serena Williams - Wimbledon 2009 Women's Singles SF -

the best ladies match I've ever seen! Daddy Williams even took his hats off for her daughter's extraordinary showcase of talent. I could feel Dementieva's fear and anxeity when Serene screams like this. lol.

Federer vs. Roddick - Wimbledon 2009 Men's Singles Finals -

waaaaaah. Thank God for Youtube. I only saw the replay.

16-14 on the final set?

woah!

Still bummed that I wasn't able to see it live.

Stupid wifi malfunctions.

15 titles!

Congrats, Fed!

suddenly missed my big black couch in my room back home. The one where I would sit comfortably while watching tennis on TV with a sandwhich and coke by my side. (

Flashback:

Djokovic vs. Tsonga

Australian Open 2008 Finals.

Nole won his first and only Grandslam title!

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ang cute ng pic! Nole's ever supportive family!

There. Phew! Thanks for the message boards and the player's wiki pages that I get to catch up on all the tennis talks.

stepanek. radek. fish. kohlsschober. haas etc. players that I never heard of before. lol.

I first heard this song two Sundays ago at Manila Baptist Church (my spiritual home for the last three months)it’s entitled “Were it not for Grace”
The lady had a very beautiful voice. The mini-orchestra that accompanied her made it even more spectacular. Goosebumps.

I searched it on youtube and found this.
Equally touching and just plain beautiful.



When I listen to a new song, I listen to the lyrics first. Then adding a nice melody will make it perfect. And having a good looking singer interpret it, is just an icing on top of a very delicious cake.

“Forever running, but losing this race, were it not for Grace”.

p.s

Congratulations, Serena Williams for winning Wimbledon 2009 Women's Singles!
phew. women's doubles later.

The One With the Bitterweet Night.

Have you ever been so sad, an elephant stomped on your chest?

And yet so happy, your heart wants to jump out of your chest?

As you know, my Djokovic took his bow at this year's Wimbledon a few hours ago.

And I'm still bummed with the results.

I've said a million times that it just hurts so much when you care so much for the game.

It makes you want to hug him on the screen when he starts shouting swear words to calm him down.

And each point he made makes you smile.

and oftentimes, makes you do the fist pump and the "hell yeah" hand raising when he scores.

Two or three of his matches finished at around 3.30 am. I stayed up late for him.

putting my review classes in jeopardy.

I was practically sleeping with eyes open in a couple of lectures.

I have been watching his every game since I came here to Manila to review.

from RG'09 to the Gerry Weber Open to Wimbledon.

I have two months of rest before It's US Open once again.

But anyways, it's all over now.

Everyone has to move on.

I have to move on.

"Jitters got me" - Novak Djokovic post-game Interview with Video.

And now with the happy thing. Career-wise.

Just this night.

My employer e-mailed me that I'm all set to be filed for an H1B visa.

Because the no. of visas didn't reach its quota yet.

I'm not sure. I'm still confused with the whole procedure.

At least, that's something that I could really look forward to.

I might be waving goodbye sa lupa kong sinilangan before the year ends.

*so crossing my fingers* for this.

I'm not putting my hopes too high though.

just so happy to know that I do.really. have a shot at this.

And to sum it up.

Maybe Djokovic losing to Haas is a sign.

Maybe I need to all the put all the childish things aside and grow up to be a man. (I Corinthians 13:11).

My future has been bulding up in a discrete manner.

But having a shot at working legally in the US and the pressure to pass the NPTE will be like a very big explosion for my part.

A turning point ought to be bookmarked.

so you see. Bittersweet.

it's. sweet >bitter.

time-check.

2:15 am. Good night/Good morning.

Paalam, Nole.

see you after two months.

The One with my numbered wall.

I was surprised to see my old phone in my suitcase. I didn't know I had it with me.

Here's my wallpaper of that phone. sorry for the very bad image. lol. it only had 1 MP, i think. lol

I just love Peyton's (One Tree Hill) line so much that I painted the exact number on my wall too.

My mom was very puzzled when I bought the red paint. lol.

it's just the most heart warming passage. ever.

At this moment there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world.

Some are running scared,

some are coming home.

Some tell lies to make it through the day.

Others are now facing the truth.

Some are evil men,at war with good.

And some are good,struggling with evil.

Six billion people in the world.

6 billion souls.

And sometimes all you need is ONE."

don't mind me playing the guitar. Just look at the numbers. lol

original pic from One Tree Hill, Season 3, Episode 1.

peyton's wall.

p.s Congratulations, Djokovic! you'll have your space here. a big space. lol

The One with all the Facts.

Found this really cool thread at pinoyexchange.com

just want to share my favorites.

Most of them surprised me.

- banana trees are not trees. they are giant herbs.

- The penalty for masturbation in Indonesia is decapitation....-

- HUMANS AND DOLPHINS are the only animals that engage in sex for pleasure.

- Bin Laden married four times and fathered at least 24 children

- Bin Laden reportedly loved American singer Whitney Houston

- Elvis Presley (singer/actor), twin brother Jesse Garon died at birth
- Kiefer Sutherland (actor), twin sister Rachel
-Justin Timberlake (singer), twin Laura Katherine died at birth
-Vin Diesel (actor), twin brother Paul
-Ashton Kutcher (actor), fraternal twin Michael
-Alanis Morissette (singer), twin brother Wade

-you can't fold the paper more than eight time regardless of size...subukan mo.

-marilyn monroe have six toes...(don't know if right foot or left foot)

- "almost" is the longest word in english alphabet that is arranged alphabetically and without repetition of letters

-Vampire bats do not suck blood. They bite, then lick up the flow

-Abraham Lincoln, who invented a hydraulic device for lifting ships over shoals, was the only US president ever granted a patent.

-Mercury is the only metal that is liquid at room temperature

-The only lizard that has a voice is the Gecko.

-The dot over the letter 'i' is called a tittle.

-A pregnant goldfish is called a twit.

-Europe 19th century, legal ang pagpapainom ng heroin sa baby para huminto sa pag-iyak.

-did you know that the qwerty arrangement of the keyboard was invented so that the typists would type slowly?weird isnt it.and we all thought it was invented so the typists could type more faster.

-Average speed of ejaculation: 28 miles per hour

-Did you know that the smallest country the world measured only .0044 Sq.KM
or about the size of two basketball courts? Can somebody give me the answer. Smaller than Rome.T ans:he answer is Sealand it a human made steel Island situated sa international water near ENgland population 8 nasunog 6mos. ago ang govt. Building (30% of the said country). Filipinos need a Visa to go there.

here's the tricky one:

-Paano nangyari to?

let a = b

(multiply both sides of the equation with a)

ab = a^2

(subtract both sides of the equation with b squared)

ab - b^2 = a^2 - b^2

the factors of the equation are

b(a-b) = (a+b)(a-b)

divide both sides of the equation with (a-b)

b = a + b

let a = 1

since a = b therefore

1 = 1+1 or 1 = 2

uhm.... since a=b, you can't divide both sides of the equation (b[a-b]=[a+b][a-b]) by (a-b) because a-b=0 (transpose b to the left side of a=b). If you do so, both sides of the equation will be undefined. Therefore, from this point on, the proof is invalid...la lang..

-The percentage of Africa that is wilderness: 28%

(now get this...)

------------ --------- --------- --------- ----

-The percentage of North America that is wilderness: 38%

-Spades - King David
-Hearts - Charlemagne
-Clubs - Alexander, the Great
-Diamonds - Julius Caesar

-Q. If you were to spell out numbers, how far would you have to go until you would find the letter "A"?
A. One thousand

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- Q. What do bulletproof vests, fire escapes, windshield wipers, and laser printers all have in common?
A. All were invented by women.

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- Q. What is the only food that doesn't spoil?
A. Honey

- blind people also have dreams. auditory nga lang.

more to come soon. :)

The One With RIP MJ.

Not really a fan.

But it's just sad knowing he passed away.

RIP.

It's true though when they say that no artist can ever take his place.

Written and Composed by Michael Jackson.
Produced by Michael Jackson.

Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for the world that I come from
'Cause I've been looking around
In the lost and found of my heart...
No one understands me
They view it as such strange eccentricities...
'Cause I keep kidding around
Like a child, but pardon me...

People say I'm not okay
'Cause I love such elementary things...
It's been my fate to compensate,
for the Childhood
I've never known...

Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for that wonder in my youth
Like pirates in adventurous dreams,
Of conquest and kings on the throne...

Before you judge me, try hard to love me,
Look within your heart then ask,
Have you seen my Childhood?

People say I'm strange that way
'Cause I love such elementary things,
It's been my fate to compensate,
for the Childhood (Childhood) I've never known...

Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for that wonder in my youth
Like fantastical stories to share
But the dreams I would dare, watch me fly...

Before you judge me, try hard to love me.
The painful youth I've had

Have you seen my Childhood...

photos by YAHOO.

The One With Jude.

Written by Jude Warner Laserna, PTRP.

http://dyudbotod.blogspot.com/

I am reviving my blog. Nah, resurrecting it back from the tombs of Aku. This doesn't mean I now have the luxury of time to write. Nor does it mean my passion for writing or for any other literary pursuit has taken the front seat of the present. I am writing because I am compelled by time. Or, more accurately, the seeming lack of it.

No, I am not dying and I am not sick. I am simply getting old. I will soon be joining the throng of once-so-young-but-not-anymore yuppies tearfully singing along the 4 Non-Blondes What's Up. Nine short months have passed since passing my Toefl exam. Nothing happened. Nothing's happening. I don't think that being a teacher has helped me in my pursuit for that elusive American dream. Even now, I am losing the spark, the flame of what moved me to become a teacher in the first place. Gone is the almost berserker-like fervor of which I envisioned myself transforming and educating the younger generation. All that is left is the pressure of meeting deadlines and completing school duties.

I'm not even sure of when and where I lost the spark. Perhaps because it is with the indifference shown by the students. Or with their apparent lack of appreciation for your sacrifices. Maybe it's because I finally understand that I may not be able to become as magnificent as I have always thought I would be. Or maybe it's because I feel that my charisma alone will not change the mediocre minds of the many sheeps I tend to everyday. Or perhaps it comes with the hopelessness of having to look after sheeps with brainpower comparable to that of a microscopic amoeba.

Or maybe I am just getting old. It is human nature I believe. Few mentors maintain their level of enthusiasm for instruction throughout their lifetime which explains why only few of them get remembered. Little by little, you get dragged to the pits of mundanity. Until eventually, everything becomes routine. Now everything is routine.

I am old. I am bored. Nothing has happened. Nothing's happening. Pray, something will happen soon....

I am loving this so much that it I just need to re-post it here.

some parts of it. amo gd na namabtyagan ko. we're getting OLD.

Gone are the days where we'd simply sing our hearts out 5 minutes before our final exams.

And laugh when we see our grades.

Gone are the days when your friends used to be so close.

Now it seems like you have to purchase a plane ticket first in order to see them.

Life was much simpler then.

haaai.

The One With the survey.

this is what happens if you mix boredom with narcissism.

thanks nisce for this survey. Taken from facebook.

1. Where did you take your profile pic?
Dorm. Room 2. Banawa, Cebu, Philippines

2. What exactly are you wearing right now?
black mini top. PJ's.

3. What is your current problem?
I'm feeling a bit guilty for not studying as hard as I'm supposed to be.

4. What makes you happy most?
seafoods. free dinner. gifts. Sundays. over sleeping. Djokovic winning a match. comments on my fb, fs and this site. success of others. CHAR! ahaha

5. What's the name of the song that you're listening to?
Coffee and Cigarettes by Michell Featherstone. "I must quit. I must quit. YOU!

6. Any celeb you would marry?
It's a toss up between Keifer Sutherland and Matthew Perry. Both old. but they took my breath away. And that's all that matters.

The question didn't say athlete right?

7. Name someone with the same birthday as you:
Cynthia Nixon, Hugh Hefner, Kirsten Stewart, Dennis Quaid.

8. Ever sang in front of a large audience?
yep. 6th grade. I still can remember the song. "responsibility is the way to make things right"

9. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
of course. ahaha. some said I looked like Angelina Jolie.and a couple of people told me I look like Maegan Young.. ahaha.. I must agree with them though. bwahaha! But the closes resemblance is I think is Alanis Morisette or Amy Winehouse. ahaha.

10. Do you still watch kiddy movies or kiddie TV shows?
ahahha. Rugrats!

11. Do you speak any languages?
English and Tagalog. So that's two.

and three dialects I think. Ilonggo. Cebuano. and karay-a.
and that's it!. lol.

12. Has anyone you've been really close passed away?
not really close. just close to someone really close to me.

13. Do you ever watch MTV?
not these past few months.

14. What's something that really annoys you?
Pollution. Noise pollution. air polltution. people without common sense pollution.

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Chapter 1
1. Surname : Gallinero
2. Nickname(s): Emz, nene ems (to my cousins),
3. Current location: Espana, Manila
4. Eye color: black

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Chapter 2
1. Do you get along with your parent(s): most of the time.
2.Are your parents married/separated/divorced? : not just married. but Happily Married.

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Chapter 3: Favorites
1. Ice Cream: Mocha.
2. Season: summer
3. Shampoo/conditioner: Clear, Citre Shine
4. Favourite Thing: my wallet.

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Chapter 4: Do You..
1. Dance in the shower?
- of course. ahaha. (Man! I feel like a woman! aaww!). ahaha

2. Do you write on your hand?
- I used to. but not anymore. just on the back of my notebooks and books.

3. Call people back?
- yes.

4. Believe in love:
- yes

5. Believe in God?
- Absolutely.

6. Any bad habits?
- I talk too much. I think too much. I analyze too much. I love too much.

7. Any mental health issues:
- 35 lbs underweight. But I don't have anorexia nervosa. lol. eating disorders are under psychological sciences

And being a little too histrionic isn't an issue right? lol
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Chapter 5: Have You..
1. Sprained stuff: no. thank God!
2. Had physical therapy: ahaha.. no.
3. Gotten stitches: yep. on my right ankle.
4. taken painkillers: just Mefenamic acids for dysmenorrhea.
5. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling: just snorkeling.
6. Thrown up at the dentist: yikes. No.
7. Sworn in front of your parents? uhm. yeah.
8. Had detention? yes!.

this is one blog entry that I will consider crap. ahaha.

The One With the Time Traveler's Wife (book review)

The Time Traveler's Wife.

Officially the best book I have ever read.

Again. I'm not a professional writer so it's not really my fault if this will sound a bit too amateur-ish. lol.

To quote some reviews. Original. Utterly convincing. Wonky. Poignant. Rare. Masterpiece.

I have read a lot of novels and nothing compares to the mystery and magic of the book.

I couldn't even find the right words to describe it.

Reading the synopsis alleviated my curiosity.

This is the extraordinary love story of Clare and Henry who met when Clare was six and Henry was thirty-six, and were married when Clare was twenty-two and Henry thirty.

And it started to grow as a fascination when I read the first chapter.

First Date, One (Saturday, october 26, 1991 (Henry is 28, Clare is 20)

And it gets even more interesting as you turn every page.

It was pure beauty amidst all the complications of mixed dates.

It made me even think if time traveling is real.

Niffenegger wrote it as though our genetic material could've been wrong and I could've been like Henry.

You know, go back in time to see my parent's first date.

There was only a teeny tiny pinch of that love triangle crap. And that's always a good thing.

There's just so much love that it teaches us to believe that it is a mortal sin to be hopeless in life.

I finished the first two-thirds of the book in no time. But as I saw the remaining pages getting thinner and thinner. i tried to read one page a night to prolong its ending. lol.

But Audrey wrote the ending with a big surprise,

A surprise with a big heart, that you could not ask for anything more.

Had a hard time hiding my Henry tears from my room mates too. lol.

A perfect way to end a masterpiece.

I will write my movie reviews come August 14th!

I'm not putting my hopes too high though so I would not get disappointed.

I will let the film surprise me as it is.

The last page. You probably can't read it so it's not a spoiler alert after all.

smelling every page of my book.. :-D.. adik!

Highlighted parts.

Last paragraph.

An unpleasant Scene.

Wednesday, Jun 2008, 2006 (Henry is 43 and 43)

The One With Kenneth and Mark

It pains me to know that I'm far away from home.

I'm so helpless to know that I can't be there with you guys.

Rest assured that you are in my prayers.

As the perfect song goes..

All things work for our good.

Though, sometimes we can't see how they could.

Struggles that break our hearts in two.

Sometimes blinds us to the truth.

Our Father knows what's best for us
His ways are not our own
So when your pathway grows dim, and you just can't see Him
Remember you're never alone

God is too wise to be mistaken
God is too good to be unkind
So when you don't understand
When you don't see His plan
When you can't trace His hand
Trust His heart.

I can't imagine the pain you both had to go through.

Never having the chance to say goodbye.

But they're in a happier and calmer place right now.

Way better that we're living in right now.

Missing you both.

The One With Edmond Sultan

Certified Sultan-o-Philic.

Others are born to write or make good music.

Others are born to lead and get rich.

Others are born to serve and work.

Saying that you are born to inspire is such an understatement because we both know you are capable of doing more than that. Because some people do get inspired but do nothing about it.

I am speaking in behalf of the thousands of people whose lives you've touched.

and with that , I say, that you are born to make history. Born to change the lives of every people you meet.

I am a lover of words, probably the reason why I admire you so much.

Like the admiration I have for Moses or Leonardo Da Vinci.

But I never had the chance to sit in one of their lectures, if they ever did teach.

So I really can't blog about them.

And it's always a pleasure listening to one of your classes.

And I can proudly say that you're the best lecturer in this whole mad world.

Seriously, it's true when they say that you're in for a real treat when people attend your lecture.

You could put in an Agriculture student in one of your Patho-Psych classes and they'll go out knowing knowing how to diagnose blood, endocrine and infectious disorders.

You could put in a nun and she'll agree with you when you talk about values, attitudes and the likes.

You could put in a beggar and that person will surely know about life and surviving it with simple strategies, even learn entrepreneurship 101 when they go home.

and You also could put a high school student, and she/he will go out with greater confidence to face the life ahead.

lastly, you could put in a child and he/she won't get bored just staring at your gestures even if she doesn't know how to speak yet.

I could go on and on but there's just not enough time.

I'm not sure if you know how gifted you are, and more importantly, how blessed you are.

You've become a public figure. Hence the fans. lol.

But the mystery behind that awesome lecturer guy is the thing that most people crave to know.

I know that's yours to keep, and that makes you even more interesting.

You're presence alone can lighten up a gloomy room.

It's like Magic.

You draw us close like a moth to a fire.

Half of me wants you to read this and the other half is screaming at me "you better pray he won't read this".

I chose the first one and published this anyways. lol

I've heard about your jokes couple of times and odd thing is,

I still laugh at them.

I think I should stop now.

This is turning to be a fan mail. lol

always,

Emery

I do sound like a Psycho, don't I?

lol

I am officially IMPRINTED. (lol. Imprinted is a term created by S. Meyer. It's a phenomenon where wolves find a very specific someone.. can't really explain it. read the book.lol.)

not much of a difference, is there?.. :D

The result of my procrastination.

I'm supposed to be studying!

July 2007. Testmanship lecture.

the day i knew I was gonna make that PTRP list.

:-)

The One with Bruno!

read somewhere that Bruno is the new Borat.

He made a sort of like a tribute to Jennifer Aniston's January 2009 GQ cover.

Nice job Sacha!, Bruno opens July 10th!

and changed my background songs!

1. heart of life by John Mayer - because it's simple yet always catches me. It makes me happy when i'm sad, and yet it can calm me when I'm ecstatic.

2. Bottle it up by Sara Bareilles - Because it's been playing non-stop in my head. All this thing I ever could need. Only one good thing worth trying to be and it's love. love. love.

3. Missing you by Tyler Hilton - Because I remember moments in the rain. And Tyler's voice slowly seeps its way into my veins.

4. Samson by Regina Spektor - taken from a live performance. I got major LSS on this for over a week when it was released. "and the history books forgot about us.. and the Bible didn't mention us.. not even once.."

5. Light years away by Mozella - Because I feel like the song is talking about me. And she writes music from her soul.

6. hallelujah by kate Voegele - remnants from my One Tree Hill addiction long ago. And it has weird lyrics. And weird interests me. So.

7. Broken by Lifehouse - it's the background music for the trailer of the Time Traveler's Wife. Need I say more?

8. Heart of Worship by the hillsong united. - I have a blood of a pastor's kid so you really can't blame me for liking this. lol

9. One ans only you by Parokya ni Edgar - it's their best song ever. And I'm liking it even more because they didn't release this as a single for the whole Pinas to know.

10. Boston by Augustana - beautiful songs may come and go. but this one is stuck with me forever.

The One With all the Drama.

Just finished 300 Giles questions and that somehow made me happy.

We're about to have our dinner in a while, then go back, study some more and watch Nole's game, later tonight.

Nole's keeping me sane in this weird environment.
So I cling on to him.


The trailer of the Time traveler's wife was officially released yesterday and that made my heart skipped a beat.

I almost want to cry just watching it. The disappearaing thing is soo awesome!

Anyways,
I was scanning my old Kinesiology book and found this little peace of paper.
I am in the state between giggling and punching myself while reading this.
Pedamundo as what Mr. Mayer said.
lol.
I'm not even sure who I was thinking when I wrote this.

How long did I allow myself to be kept delicate?

I'm like a puppet under everyone's spell.

Bound to fall and crash.

If tragedy means having to let you go..

before I even called you my own.

And if it also means having to be this happy,

just seeing your face everyday

and just realize, you left for good.

hard to admit the fact that it also means

having to wait for you for me to be alive again.

Then give me tragedy.

it's the only way to check if my heart's still beating.

I was such a drama queen back then. lol.

The One with all the Physical Agents

So we had Physical Agents this morning with Sir Third. 

HMP, Cryotherapy, TENS, Ultrasound, Phonophoresis, etc...

I only had three hours of sleep the night before,

Basically, all I did was fight off my drooping eyelids the whole time.

I managed to write all the details being played out on the monitor.

But you see, writing is very much different than actually grasping it. hard.

So when he pauses to explain something complicated.

I jotted down these lines.

Such things are still unknown to me..

Like the dirt on my face.

the wind of my heart.

The echoes of my soul.

Closing my eyes. 

Remembering a child's embrace. So pure.

It's like painting a sky with a gray paint.

Always that feeling when it's about to rain. 

Copyright 2009 by: Emery.

Beautiful words do come out when you're half-awake, eh?

The One Where I'm subdued

It's exactly 1:11 pm here in our loft.

it's supposed to be bright but all my room mates are asleep so. it's dark.

Fo so long i've wanted to write something here.

just to let it all out.

just to exhale.

exhaling.

I've been here In manila for almost a month and a half.

And what have I done?

I'm supposed to be studying.

Why can't I get that stupid momentum?

I keep telling myself.. I'll start studying tomorrow.

then tomorrow comes and I'll just look at my piled books and notes.

I'm blaming no one but myself.

I am a very bad company.

So I just went home after a lecture with Sir IIIrd.

Orthotics and Prosthetics.

In fairness to me.

I did remember most of it.

I'm re-planning my life now.

I'm setting some new short and long term goals.

And I'm eager to follow them.

step 1: study hard.

step 2: pray hard.

step 3: iron my papers.

step 4: prayer even harder.

step 5: pass the NPTE

step 6: start building everything.

step 7: always bow in gratitude and count my blessings.

weh. blah.

this is a post not ought to be published.

but what the hell.

I'm subdued.

p.!s

since RG '09 sucked big time. (just because Nole didn't even get to the QF! bop!)

let's all countdown to see Wimbledon!